I have a sweet friend who once left a salt lamp on my front stoop for no apparent reason.  There was a note on the box and it said: 

"Because you deserve it.  You do.  You just do."

And it was a salt lamp.  It's on every day and most nights.  I love it.  It makes sense.  I do deserve it.

Tonight I'm crying a lot about things that I've had to say goodbye to.  My father, my dog, people I've loved ... my pride.  Blowing kisses in the direction of my pride and my past loves.  Big, generous, vulnerable kisses.  I love you.  I just do.

I've decided that the trend of knowing what the FUCK you're talking about in your blog is bull shit.  I don't have to make a point.  I don't have to know the solution to any array of various human problems.  I don't have to know anything.  Instead, I can comment on my own very human condition.  And that's it if I want.

I deserve it.  I'm human.  I showed up.  I continue to show up.

Right now all I want to do is share a song that feels like poetry to me.  Because I deserve it.  Because I have a right to my big feelings and to my sense of personal expression.  Personal expression - I deserve it.  I just do. 

If you enjoy it, please leave a comment and let me know :) 

xoxo

"Beautiful Dawn"
 

Take me to the breaking of a beautiful dawn
Take me to the place where we came from
Take me to the end so I can see the start
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me to the place where I don't feel so small
Take me where I don't need to stand so tall
Take me to the edge so I can fall apart
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me where love isn't up for sale
Take me where our hearts are not so frail
Take me where the fire still owns its spark
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Teach me how to see when I close my eyes
Teach me to forgive and to apologize
Show me how to love in the darkest dark
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me where the angels are close on hand
Take me where the ocean meets the sky and the land
Show me to the wisdom of the evening star
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me to the place where I feel no shame
Take me where the courage doesn't need a name
Learning how to cry is the hardest part
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

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